I'm not going to tell anyone about this blog; I'm sure I've got quite a reputation for being an "unblogger". I couldn't count the number of blogs I've created and made less than 20 entries, let alone the number of blogs that I've created and never made an entry!
My problem is not lack of commitment but lack of motivation, lack of focus and lack of ability to be inspired. This does not apply just to blogging but to my life. As with blogging there are many things I would like to do in my life; day to day, next week, in five years, that I just lack motivation, focus and inspiration. I wish I could be like Martha Stewart and make everything from cakes and dinners to home decor pieces. I envy my friends who are (to me) like "mini-Martha's"; those who actually use their sewing machines, bake daily (or at least on alternate days,) decorate their children's birthday cakes, write and actually send thank you notes/cards. Those who knit or crochet, who make cards and complete their scrapbooking albums. I also envy my friends who have chosen to pursue careers, when I can't even decide who I want to be when I grow up! Physically and intellectually I can do all these things, I am a very inquisitive and creative soul, mentally and emotionally I just don't have it in me to fully participate in my own life.
So; this will be my blog, for now. Hopefully for longer than others which have come before it.
Who am I? I'm just a girl, lost within myself, trying to find a way out. Hoping to really grow up one day.
- Wednesday 28 April 2010
