Inconsistency is key...

Where can I find a hobby, career or other aspiration in which consistency is of little importance?

As you can readily see by reading my blog; consistency and inspiration to create are very low in my skill set at the moment. I haven't always been like this; I feel lost at the moment every time I think of something I would like to do I just as quickly think of a reason why I can't do it, or shouldn't do it.

Once upon a time in my younger life I wanted to be an electrician. Truth be told, I still do, I would LOVE to be an electrician. I've been thinking about it a lot. This evening I logged in to our local energy supplier (well, one of them, I guess) where 16 years ago I wanted to be accepted for an apprenticeship. At that stage I had started a pre-apprenticeship course sponsored by the State electrical contractor's association; a scholarship for the most part. I ended up dropping out. I was too weak and naive and when I had to take time off for knee surgery I listened to the TAFE teacher who said "you have had too much time off, you can't catch up." I just believed him, I have regretted it ever since.

To gain an electrical apprenticeship with any of the energy suppliers you have to pass an assessment process which includes a test of your general knowledge in relation to English, Maths and Science. Of course; I passed the English questions barely thinking about them, then I failed dismally the Maths and Science questions. Questions that 16 years ago I would've passed in a similar manner to how I passed the English ones this evening. All that sin, cos and tan! :o It's quite obvious that if you're not an electrician (or an engineer, surveyor, etc) these mathematical functions are simply NOT a part of daily life. Dare I say; in the work experience I did I never had to work them out either, they were done by the engineers or estimators, we (the contractors I worked with) never had to work out how much "stuff" to use, we just had to install it and make it work!

I will have to go to TAFE then; and do a certificate to refresh my maths and science skills. So I looked up a course, the one I'd most like to do is not available locally, of course! That sent me into a tail spin and made it all too hard for me to get my head around, which course to do, when to do it, etc. Aaargh!

I will have to go to the TAFE and get someone to tell me what I have to do; which obviously involves interacting with people. People scare me. I don't want to. I HAVE to get over this or I'm never going to get anywhere!